so.

I dunno what goes on in my head sometimes. Anxiety attacks, depression, self sabotage.
I went to class today and left before it even started...I had to and I don't know why.
I mean I can guess, I'm sure it has a lot to do with me being so far behind, like every other year.
I have wasted my on an education I am certain I will not be able to utilize in anyway that can be financially beneficial to me.

I feel the wanderlust again but know it wont do me any good. I am discontent with nearly every aspect of my life. I hate knowing that I am fully capable and yet unable to succeed. Im not trying to imply that I live some extraordinarily difficult life, just that I have a exceedingly difficult time maintaining the minimum level of societal progress.

I am beginning to notice that I am less and less comfortable outside of my home, I fear what's out there I guess, I fear failure, I fear that I will somehow end up in a situation I cannot control. I hate being so out of control of what's going on.